Entry 42

I find myself lacking any motivation to look through more apartments. I never imagined anything as horrible as the last apartment. I find myself afraid I could find something worse in the next.

There is at least one thing I need out of 207. The shotgun would be very useful. Being able to walk into a room and clear it of zombies with one shot is a lot better than trying to pick them off with this handgun. However, I am not ready to go back in there yet. Hopefully it airs out and is not so horrible after a few days.

Since I was unwilling to go into 207 and was not ready to go into more apartments, I used my day to try and figure out how to fortify my apartment building. Defending against zombies seems rather easy now that I have cut off access from the ground. The ramp seems to have worked so far and makes it easy to get down and up. The biggest problem is people have guns and can think.

How do I defend against someone with a gun? I think the military builds stuff out of concrete and dirt to stop bullets. I cannot do either. It still might be worth building up some sort of barricades. I doubt more than a couple people would ever show up at once and they would need a ladder. As long as I had a safe place to hide and defend from that would be all I need. I wonder how thick wood would have to be to stop a bullet.

I came up with a better way to get to ground level while I was trying to figure out how to better defend myself. If I could cut through the floor into a lower apartment I could have a ladder I could lower as needed. Then build a door or hatch that I could secure to cover the hole. This way from the outside people would never see how to get up. It also would give me a room and doorway as a line of defence. With the ramp when it lowered there is nothing protecting me or the ramp. Also, I could move any materials I wanted into the room. Then I could secure the door and move them up without having to worry about the zombies attacking me while I slowly moved the materials up the ramp. I am not sure how hard it would be to cut through the floor but it could make accessing the lower levels much more secure. Plus, I could then access the apartments on the first floor without having to be unprotected outside where the zombies could get me.

With most of the day already behind me I decided to settle in earlier than normal. My appetite was back so I cooked half a frozen pizza in the oven. It is nice not having to worry the beep of the oven will alert the zombies to come after me. Even though I did see a few out in the parking lot I know I am quite safe from them.

I realize I need to survive, to keep going. I do not know why, but somehow I know I must. I just wish I understood why. What is the meaning of this new world and my new life.