Entry 22

It was already dead. I was having a hard time coping with what I had done. I realized that it was not alive anymore. It is simply not human; what made it human is long gone. If I had turned into one of them, a zombie, I would want to be killed. Her fiance would never have wanted her to live like that. If my family was like that... I hope someone would do the same.

It was almost impossible to forget what's left of it was in the other apartment. The smell was so awful it had permeated to the next apartment. It would reach mine soon. The only choice was to move it out of the apartment. I watched outside for quite awhile through all three windows to ensure the walkway was empty. I used the blankets from the bedroom it came from to wrap it up. I drug the corpse to the door and removed the brace. Then I grabbed my spear and very slowly opened the door, making sure not to make a sound. Once it was open a bit I carefully looked out down the walk in one direction. Then after opening the door a bit more I looked around the door to check the other direction. After watching a moment and listening carefully for any noise, I drug it outside a bit and then bolted back inside putting up the barricade. I really hope it being out there does not attract more of them. Wish I had thought of that before I moved the corpse outside.

The smell is still lingering but it began to dissipate right away. I did not want to risk opening the window so I turned on the fan in the bathroom. By the time I was putting up the barricade for the night, it was almost tolerable in the room without plugging my nose. Tomorrow I hope to be able to finish going through the apartment.

Going out on the walk gave me an idea today. If I could find a way to barricade the walk, it would make it much easier to handle trash and move through the apartments. I also now know I can handle one of them. I still doubt I could deal with more than one at a time, but it gives me hope. The gun might just be the key if I am ever attacked by more than one.

I may have the gun problem solved shortly. I have only one more pin stopping me. Today I managed to get the fifth pin in place. I cannot reliably get the it in place yet, but I have managed it a couple of times. With some luck I hope to have the gun open soon.

With a gun, it would be much easier to try to barricade the walkway. Perhaps I could slowly take over this whole apartment building. Being able to move freely through the apartments would make it much easier to get any supplies I need. Also not having to rely on holes through walls would make it much easier to access rooms above and below me. In fact, I do not even know where I would cut to get into the apartments behind mine or the apartment around the corner when I got to it.

The thought of having the whole building secured gives me some hope. If I did manage to find other people it would give me the room and supplies for them. If nothing else it will give me something to do for awhile; sitting around gives me too much time to think. After I sort through the newest apartment I will have to start planning.