Entry 20

I spent most the night terrified. My screams must have attracted every one of them nearby. All night I could hear them on the walkway, some pounded on the doors trying to get in. Such stupid mistakes, it was just dumb luck I survived.

I finally passed out for a few minutes right as the sun was rising. I bolted awake shortly after with no hope of more sleep. It took some time to work up the courage to leave the bedroom. I held my spear tightly as I quietly opened the door. None had broken through into my apartment overnight. I took even longer building up the courage to go into the next apartment. Again, the barricades had held. I could not bring myself to go back into the apartment where it was. I checked to make sure the barricade was intact and headed back.

I had to take a bath; some of the ichor from the monster got onto me. I hope I have not infected myself by leaving it on me. I washed my clothes and my sheets to make sure it was gone. I also did my best to clean the spear. All the serrations made it hard to clean, especially as I was very careful to avoid cutting myself.

I spent the rest of the day watching out the windows. There are still a few where I can see them, doing nothing but standing around. A few times I crept to the barricade to listen into the third apartment trying to find out if it was dead. If it did get up, it could be standing there like the ones outside and I would never hear it. I wish the ones outside would just get bored and go somewhere else. Instead, they stand out there waiting for me to screw up.

I have no idea if I actually killed it. It already looked dead, how can I tell if it is? How can these things be real? These... zombies simply cannot really exist. Why can't I wake up from this hell?

What am I supposed to do tomorrow?